You passed away yesterday. I am still absorbing it. I cannot even start describing the pain and grief of the loss of those who knew you for years. You are one of the beautiful souls inside out.
From day one that you heard about me, you have opened your arms and heart for me. You were welcoming me in ways I did not imagine possible. You took us between your arms, me and my child. You embraced us and you made me feel home like I never felt before. I have always loved those long chats between us, either gossiping about your son, or telling random stories of daily life. You removed the barrier in your special way, and you always had a beautiful story to tell.
I remember the first time I met you, you hugged me, and said how happy you are to finally meet me. You had always your special way, which made it easy for anyone to get attached to you.
Living here, 3000+ kms away, made it hard to spend proper regular weekends with you. I always felt the urge, the wish, the need to spend more time with you. I wished to properly see every detail of your life. We spent a beautiful summer holiday together, and it never felt too much. Everything was so smooth, and so natural. But those were only two weeks. Then, we had again our endless chats. In most of our talks, you had your way to ask about all details. You cared from your heart for our lives. You kept all the bonds despite the distance.
Then came the wedding, and its preparations. You were over the moon. We shared details and preparations. You had always been there with sweet care. Whenever I needed some opinion about a detail, you were happily there.
Then, came the COVID, with all its lock downs around the world. We could not see you again until last December. It was a beautiful catch-up. We met almost every day of my short vacation there. It never felt too much. I was always happy to stay there with you. You showed me the pictures of your childhood. You told me many stories which were all so nice and so light. You had your special way… You were really special.
You introduced me properly for the family, and my child had the chance to meet and bond with every single person in your family. Real bonds were built. No grudges, no behind-the-back talks, no weird situations were ever there. Pure “I feel myself home” feeling prevailed the whole period. I was honored to get closer to you, and to spend proper quality time in person in that period. Then, we had to go back here, and again the distant talks.
Then, came the new wave, and another lock down followed the first one. It was very hard to go anywhere, but we had high hopes to meet again in Easter holidays. It was all unclear, but we hoped to be able to spend some time again by then.
You got sick, and unexpectedly it all developed so quickly. We could video chat in the beginning, but then it all deteriorated so quickly. In less than 10 days, you were already in the hospital, and later in the ICU. The days of the ICU were heavy, we were not able to talk to you, or see you. It was your prison in that place, and it was our prison being distant from you. Until that day came, and silence prevailed along with pain.
You passed away leaving a huge gap, and big loss for our families. You were the main bond between all families, and you maintained all connections between all of us. You cared for every single detail, and every little story. You were so pure from inside. You shared positive energy and love with anyone you spoke to. You were an easy-going person, who made the life of anyone around easy. I am writing in the hope of trying to feel better. Despite my limited time with you, I really loved you from my heart. I cannot even start to relate to the pain those who shared a lifetime with you..
Until we meet again..
اللهمّ اغفر لها و ارحمها و اعف عنها و اكرمها منزلها، لا إله إلا أنت يا حنان يا منان يا بديع السموات و الأرض تغمدها برحمتك يا أرحم الراحمين
اللهمّ اجزها عن الإحسان إحساناً، وعن الإساءة عفواً وغفراناً. اللهمّ إن كانت محسنة فزد من حسناتها، وإن كان مسيئة فتجاوز عن سيّئاتها. اللهمّ أدخلها الجنّة من غير مناقشة حساب، ولا سابقة عذاب. اللهمّ آنسها في وحدتها، وفي وحشتها، وفي غربتها
اللهمّ أنزلها منزلاً مباركاً، وأنت خير المنزلين. اللهمّ أنزلها منازل الصدّيقين، والشّهداء، والصّالحين، وحسُن أولئك رفيقاً. اللهمّ اجعل قبرها روضةً من رياض الجنّة، ولا تجعله حفرةً من حفر النّار. اللهمّ افسح لها في قبرها مدّ البصر، وافرش قبرها من فراش الجنّة
اللهم أغفر لها وأرحمها وأعف عنها وأكرم نزلها ووسع مدخلها وغسلها بالماء والثلج والبرد ونقها من الخطايا كما ينقى الثوب الأبيض من الدنس، وارحمنا إذا صرنا إلى ما صارت إليه وجازها بالحسنات إحسانا وبالسيئات عفوا وغفرانا وأفتح أبواب السماء لروحها برحمتك يا أرحم الراحمين.
اللهم ارحمها فوق الارض وتحت الارض ويوم العرض عليك. اللهم قها عذابك يوم تبعث عبادك.
اللهم انقلها من ضيق اللحود ومن مراتع الدود الى جناتك جنات الخلود لا اله إلا أنت يا حنان يا منان يا بديع السماوات والارض تغمدها برحمتك يا ارحم الراحمين.
اللهم يمّن كتابها ويسّر حسابها ، وثقّل بالحسنات ميزانها، وثبّت على الصراط أقدامها وأسكنها في أعلى الجنات، في جوار نبيّك ومصطفاك صلى الله عليه وسلم .
اللهم احشرها مع المتقين إلى الرحمن وفدا، وفي زمرة المؤمنين ومع الصديقين والشهداء.
اللـهـم إنها فى ذمتك وحبل جوارك فقها فتنة القبر وعذاب النار، وانت أهل الوفاء والحق فاغفر لها وارحمها انك انت الغفور الرحيم.
وصل اللهم علي سيدنا محمد وعلى آله وصحبه وسلم