Here passes another year, year 2017, with all its ups and downs, with all its beauties, lessons, feelings, conflicts, travels and experiences. This is my time to reflect back the whole year, to define the new year resolution…
Each month had its story, its memory and its blueprint: January, when I discovered new types of schools for my little girl. February, when my sister moved in here, and I had my dental operation, and knew about a murder. March, I still took a long time to heal after the operation, but I continued my swimming lessons. April, the only month that I visited Egypt in 2017, when I got closer to a new friend here, when I traveled around in Egypt with my family and friends. May, when I visited Prague, the city that I love. June, Ramadan, and some true inner souls were revealed! July, attending the first play performed by my child, Coldplay concert! August, when I had a beautiful round tour with my best friend here, where we picked random stops which turned to be heaven. September, first day at school, with a lot of preparations, started my German course. October, the first time that my parents visited me here, with another round trip in a mini-bus which I drive. November, starting online courses. December, visiting a snowy mountain, and most of Christmas markets around us.
On the friendship level, it has been beautiful with my friends from the last couple of years. I have got closer to one more family around April. They have been my backbone during hard times. They stood there for me, when no one else did. Moreover, some of my friends since colleague opened up about their deepest secrets without me asking for it. It was very passionate, very sincere, and very honest talk with them. They fueled my soul with more energy more than I can explain. The more I listen, the more I tank up and fill up my soul. On the other hand, some friends decided to disappear and move forward in another direction. This is the normal trend with some friends. Sad but understandable.
On the shocks level, that day in February when I picked up my kid from school, I knew that two boys were murdered. I cried for one week without a reason. When I dug deeper, the only suspect was their dad – which we met at kindergarten pretty often – who picked them up for swimming – who had severe problems with his wife and their mom – who had enormous depression. Who tried to tell my husband about his problems but we could not help. I was shocked to know a victim that close, a murderer that close, and to see how far depression can take us.
On the physical health level, it has been a different experience than the previous years. My Hashimoto (autoimmune disease) got worse with higher antibodies, with more sleepless nights, and overall weaker body. But luckily, it is still manageable. I have removed one more wisdom tooth under full anesthesia which took more than 6 weeks for me to properly heal. It lead to a longer series of dental handling. Meanwhile, I have rarely proceeded practicing my CrossFit due to many other limitations, which made me lose a couple of kilograms, and get back to my normal weight for the past decade. However, walking has been my companion. With an average of unplanned 40~60 kms walked monthly, I have managed to keep my blood circulation flowing. Also, I have joined a short swimming course which was so much fun!
On the career level, work has been stable until August, when everything turned upside down. Teams were changed, scope was changed, managers were changed, and my assignments are changed. Landed to a team with no clear defined scope, it implies the need to explore my own way, identify how we would proceed, and manage the team within the changing vague environment. It is quite frustrating, but I know it will pass. It even increased my sleepless nights, and my generic anger, but I am full of faith, that I will manage to handle it within the new year 2018.
On the educational level, I have managed to restart my German courses. I can now mostly express myself, but I am not still accurate and precise. I decided to resume my courses in the hope of sharpening my language, to better win my arguments. Moreover, I have found some online courses for computer sciences, which I started around November. They are super interesting, that I do not want to stop soon. Also, I have read a couple of psychological books, which I use in my daily life…
On the exploration level, it was a fruitful year, with a lot of explorations with my beloved ones. I have visited many cities: Prague, Ain Sokhna, Alexandria, Cairo, Baden-baden, Freudenstadt, Tegelberg, Heidelberg, Strasbourg, Roppenheim, Salzburg, Parndorf, Schwangau, Hallstatt, Vienna, Munich and Schaffhausen… Many lakes: Mummelsee over a mountain and Titisee… Many Waterfalls: Rhinewasserfall, Bad Urach and Triberg. It was very interesting, and I have mostly been on some highway to somewhere. I went over many mountains, took many trains, and walked and drove many kilometers.
On the hobbies level, the only hobby that sustained this year was traveling and reading. With many online books, and thousands of driven kilometers, the main two hobbies that sustained this year were those two. Sports has been there, but randomly. It was always a part of my travels, and my activities. But I was not dedicated like previous years.
It has been a fruitful year… with a lot more stability… consistency… persistence… and focus. Of course there has been some slips, but I know it now going to the right direction… It has been a year without extreme incidents like before… It has been a year which showed me who is whom… who belongs to my circle and who does not.. who I am… where my weaknesses are, and how to tackle them… who I want to be, and who I want to be with… It has been an intellectual year, with less talking, and more doing… It is a year which makes me pleased of the progress I made, and the path I took so far.
Looking forward for new year 2018 with new resolution, and new hopes!