فتة لحمة مصري – Egyptian fatta with meat

Ingredients:

  • Rice:
    • 1 cup rice
    • 1.5 cups water
    • 1/4 tea spoon salt
    • 1/2 tea spoon butter
  • Meat:
    • 1/2 kilogram meat cut to cubes
    • 1/2 tea spoon cumin
    • 1 cube soup broth
    • chopped onions
    • 3 garlic pieces
    • 1/8 tea spoon salt
    • 1 cup water
  • Tomato Sauce:
    • 400-500 grams of tomato paste (or mixed in the mixer)
    • 4-5 garlic
    • few drops of concentrated vinegar or 2 spoons of diluted vinegar
    • pepper + salt
    • little amount of butter
  • 1 whole Egyptian bread (cut to squares)

Time:

  • Preparation + Cooking: ca. 45 mins

Steps:

We have to cook everything separately to mix them all at the end.

Meat:

  1. I prefer using the pressure cooker, because it cooks the meat perfectly well without waiting for hours.
  2. Add the onions, and garlic to the pressure cooker on high temperature.
  3. Add the meat, salt, pepper and cumin.
  4. Add the soup broth cube, and the water.
  5. Stir well, and close the lid.
  6. Once it boils, reduce the temperature to a middle degree.
  7. Let is cook for around 30 mins after boiling.

Rice:

  1. Wash the rice to remove the starch, and leave aside to sift the extra water
  2. On a rice pot (non-sticking tefal), add the butter on high temparature until it melts.
  3. Add the rice and mix.
  4. Add the 1.5 cups of water.
  5. Add the salt, and close the cover.
  6. Once it boils, reduce to the lowest temperature, and do not open the lid until it finishes cooking.
  7. Cooking time: 15 mins once it boils, and you reduce the temperature.

Tomato Sauce:

  1. On a pan, add the butter and garlic, and let them mix well.
  2. Add tomato paste (or mixed tomatoes) until all is well mixed.
  3. Add the salt and pepper.
  4. Before turning off the cook, add the vinegar and mix well.

Now you have all 3 ingredients cooked and ready.

Actual preparation steps:

  1. On the lower layer of the serving plate (preferable a Pyrex), cut the bread to small squares and cover the lower layer.
  2. Add the meat, and use some of the formed soup to let the bread soak from the soup
  3. Use the rice to cover as a top layer for the ingredients below.
  4. Add the tomato sauce on top to cover the whole delicious recipe.
  5. E N J O Y !

أرز معمر – Oven-baked Rice with milk

Ingredients:

  • 2 cups rice
  • 1.5 cups water
  • 1.5 cups full fats milk
  • 1 cube soup (maggie)
  • 1/4 tea spoon salt
  • 1/2 tea spoon butter

Time:

  • Preparation: 10 mins
  • Cooking time: 40 mins

Steps:

  1. Pre-heat the oven at 200°C
  2. Wash the 2 cups of rice to get rid of any extra starch
  3. On the cook, in a pot, place the liquids together (water and milk), salt, butter, and soup cube.
  4. Stir well until all ingredients mix well and become close to boil.
  5. In a Pyrex or a clay roaster, place the washed rice, and add the hot mixed liquids from the pot.
  6. Put in the oven on the middle level for 40 mins.

Communication Basics

Don’t you sometimes feel that you are not able to connect to some people? On the other hand, sometimes you connect to others in the blink of an eye. Sometimes relations work quite smoothly, and sometimes it is a pure fight to make basic things work. It usually depends on both persons communicating. But in general, few basics should always exist to be able to build a healthy relation with anyone, and to be able to establish a normal communication.Respect

Respect

Respect has few meanings. It means mutual respect, the way you visualize the person you communicate with. The feelings you hold behind for that person would contribute massively to how you control your attitude. Respect defines your words, your body language, your thoughts and your expressions. This is usually the very basic rule to start with any meaningful talk. If that disappeared, the whole ground for a conversation vanishes.

Trust

Trust is another huge pillar for any basic communication. Can you imagine yourself talking to someone you never trust? Can you imagine how your feelings would be to spend few minutes exchanging with a person you barely trust? This is exactly why trust is a very strong foundation for any meaningful communication exchange. When you barely trust someone, you start to attack their words, their beliefs, and their sayings. This brings lots of negativity to the conversation. Meanwhile, the person being attacked, will be defensive, which worsens the whole situation. The mistrust feeds in more fractures to the forming relation.

Language

Language is another huge pillar. Can you imagine exchanging a deep conversation with someone who barely speaks your language. It is not only the same language, but also the same vocabulary for the same language. In some cases, different dialects or different vocabulary used for the same words make the conversation close to impossible! It creates many misunderstandings, hence damaging the trust and also the respect eventually. Picking the “polite” words may differ from one person to another. Choosing the right description for a certain meaning would change from one culture / educational background to the other. It plays a huge role to make the communication foundation stronger, or it can easily damage all what previously was built.

How to decorate a cake?

The best way to decorate a cake is to first identify what taste you would like to have. But in general, there are few basic rules to be able to get a light taste, with the perfect ingredients.

First decide, how it would taste, shall it be a pure fruit cake, or a chocolate cake, or a mix of both?

For me, I usually prefer the option to have fruits inside, with white creme, and cover it on top with chocolate. This way, it would be relatively light, and still quite delicious.

Steps for the inside:

  1. Cut the cake to 3 layers (**)
  2. Add the first layer to the final serving plate.
  3. Add few spoons of sprite/7up. –> Usually this adds a lovely juicy effect to the cake
  4. Add the whipping creme as a small layer –> this helps the cake layers stick properly together
  5. Add chopped banana –> bananas add a very nice neutral taste to any cake
  6. Add the next layer of the cake.
  7. Add few spoons of 7-Up or sprite (lemon soda drinks make wonders!)
  8. Add whipped creme again to stick the layers
  9. Add some jam (usually peach or strawberry jam is the best)
  10. Add some nuts (usually almonds and hazelnuts are the best taste)
  11. Add the last cake layer
  12. Repeat the steps (3&4)
  13. Make the whipping creme even to be ready for the decoration step
    ** tip: you can increase the height of the cake by doubling the number of cakes used, and still repeat same steps with each layer. You can also add more ingredients with each layer, like: pineapple, chocolate chips, nutella or peanut butter.

How to decorate from outside:

  1. Look in the internet for ideas, what do you want to put on top…
  2. It can be chocolate icing, or white icing, to pour on top of the cake
  3. It can be drips on the side of the cake
  4. It can be a half-naked cake from one side, and the rest is covered with flowers
  5. It can be covered with biscuits on top

A nice tip: writing with chocolates.. This is a very nice trick. You can get a normal chocolate bar, and heat it in the microwave for less than a minute. It will become relatively smooth. Put a couple of molten chocolate spoons in a plastic bag (the small ones for preserving food), and make a cut on the side. Then, feel free to write anything or draw anything. Afterwards, freeze the chocolate figures in the fridge (or even deep freezer). Then, you will have your own hand-made chocolate figures, drawings and names. This will make your cake even more professional with a very nice personalized touch!

Above here are some pictures with some basic easy ideas.

Potatoes Soup

Ingredients:

  • 2-3 large potatoes
  • salt
  • pepper
  • ginger
  • oregano
  • fresh coriander
  • chopped onion
  • 1-2 garlic
  • soup cube
  • (optional: 200 ml cooking creme)

Time:

  • Preparation time: 5 mins
  • Cooking time: 20 mins

Method:

  1. Peel the potatoes
  2. Add 500 ml water to pan on the cooker
  3. Add the potatoes, garlic, onions
  4. Add salt, pepper oregano and ginger
  5. Add the soup cube
  6. Add the fresh coriander
  7. After 20 mins, when the potatoes is soft, mix all ingredients with the hand-blender
  8. (optional: add the cooking creme, and stir well)
  9. When all components are smooth, add some coriander/basil on top for garnish

Tomato Soup

Ingredients:

  • 2 Tomatoes
  • 1 Tomato sauce (pressed tomatoes)
  • 1 whole Sweet red pepper
  • 1 carrot
  • 1 tea spoon salt
  • 2 tea spoons sugar
  • 1 tea spoon paprika
  • black pepper
  • 1 soup cube
  • 2 table spoons olive oil
  • (optional) 200 ml cooking creme (Schlagsahne)

Time:

  • Preparation time: 5 mins
  • Cooking time: 20 mins

Cooking Method:

  • Add 500ml water to a cooking pan
  • Add the tomatoes, red pepper, carrots to the pan
  • Add the soup cube
  • Add the tomato sauce
  • Add the paprika, salt, pepper and sugar
  • Add the oil to the pan
  • Leave all to boil for 15-20 mins until the vegetables are soft
  • Mix all with electric blender
  • Add the optional cooking creme
  • You can also add some basilikum leaves on top when serving

Cooking with Love

Cooking is an art.. a hobby.. a way of meditation.. It reflects everything inside, and it shows how much love you hold inside.

In the past, I used to cook as a process, because we have to eat, and because I have to cook. Eating was a process, and I never enjoy what I eat. Until lately, I changed my perspective.

I still eat to survive, because when I starve, it is quite hard for me to stay focused. I start shivering, and trembling out of hunger. But still, I started to enjoy cooking. I feel proud and happy to create something delicious. I enjoy the idea of mixing strange ingredients together to create something out of the norm.

I feel proud with that little cake, or that nice salad. I feel happy to see that smile or amusement of others eating what I tried to prepare. It is quite an amazing feeling, to see that those mixed ingredients, could create that much happiness for others.

I do love to cook different things, with lots of love. I enjoy the smell of what is cooked. I enjoy seeing others enjoying it. This was a very long road, until I can say I am now here. It is no longer a heavy duty which I hate doing. It is now a quite enjoyable activity, I would totally love to do for others, and with others. It is a bless, to be able to cook, with love.

Thanks God.

Sableh – سابليه

الطريقة الأولي:

سابليه بالمربي
السابليه من انواع الحلويات المحبوبة من الصغار و الكبار و اللي ممكن يدخل في مكوناتها اضافات كتيرة جدا بتغير النتيجة في كل مرة
عجينة السابليه هي اساس صناعة التارتات و اشكال اخري من الحلويات
هذه احدي وصفات السابليه المعتمدة عندي من حوالي خمس سنين
المقادير. ……..
200 جرام زبدة بحرارة المطبخ
100 جرام سكر بودرة
300 : 350 جرام دقيق
فانيليا أو أي نكهة مفضلة
رشة ملح
1 م ك كاكاو في حالة كانت الرغبة سابليه بالشوكولا و تخصم من كمية الدقيق
1 حبة بيض في حرارة المطبخ
الطريقة ……..
تخفق الزبدة قليلا ثم يضاف السكر تدريجيا مع الخفق حتي يفتح اللون و نحصل علي خليط كريمي
يضاف البيض و الفانيليا مع الخفق حتي تختفي و تندمج
يضاف الدقيق تدريجيا حتي نحصل علي عجين غير ملتصق مع مراعاة عدم العجن و إنما مجرد لم العجين و نتوقف عن إضافة الدقيق بمجرد تشكل العجين لدينا حتي لو لم نستخدم كل الكمية بمعني عدم التقيد بكمية الدقيق
من المهم أن يكون العجين رطب و ناعم و غير ملتصق
يغلف العجين بالبلاستيك و يوضع في الثلاجة من 10 دقائق حتي ليلة كاملة و عادة ابقيه وقت قليل
ناخذ كمية من العجين و تفرد بين ورقتين زبدة أو سيليكون أو بلاستيك بسمك حوالي 3 مم تقريبا و تشكل بالقطاعات حسب الشكل المرغوب علي أن تكون نصف الكمية بها فتحة في منتصفها
يخبز فوق ورق الزبدة في حرارة 160 حتي يتلون بلون فاتح و بسيط
يترك ليبرد جيدا قبل التزيين
الف هنا

Connected to You

This connection to yourself. Your inner self. Where you actually feel you are safe to be who you are. Where you are no longer afraid of your thoughts. Your ideas. Your feelings. This is this special connection where you actually feel you can be. You can exist. You can feel safe to live the way you do. This is not a light easy thing. It requires years of work.

Usually, growing up includes a lot of taming one’s self to be the version one should be. Until at one point of time, you grow up and feel on your own in the ocean of life. You end up not knowing anymore how to be, whether you are allowed to be, or if you can be who you are meant to be. Many questions, not a single answer.

This is the time that you should sit and pause. This is when you should look deeper into your soul, into your self. This is when you get to know yourself for the first time. This is when you truly face the hardest beast of your life… Your own inner you.

Once you make your homework, and identify your thoughts, your needs, your feelings and your beliefs. This is when you truly become one. This is when you integrate with your inner self to be whole again. This is when your outside joins your inside to become your new true you. That version which was hidden for years afraid to see the light. This is the version which was always suppressed, scared to face the outside world.

This is when you truly connect to yourself, and become the mature grown-up intact you. This is when you flourish and grow to be ready to face the whole world.

Small Daily Achievements

I used to push myself so hard to look for the big achievements every day. I belittled the small things. It used to be so hard to see those small achievements as real successes. The pressure I used to suffer from was mostly coming from inside. Until one day, I learned the lesson.

Life isn’t about what you do on a large scale. This isn’t something everyone is meant to do. It is mostly about those small little tiny achievements done every single day consistently. It is about the consistent progress for the big targets. It is not at all possible to reach those big targets without keeping the steady pace of the small achievements.

Taking that example of work, for work to be a great success, it has to be a steady pace of small achievements regularly. Depending on your job, it can be sending those positive vibes to the team. It might be that consistent correct task done. It could also be that professional dealing with the daily small obstacles you face. Succeeding in that, one by one, will make you the person making a difference in everyone’s life at work.

Another example would be the family. For a mother to be successful in motherhood, it doesn’t work when you seek perfection in every single detail. It works better when you keep your steady giving for your family without feeling drained. Let it be the daily routine of cooking or helping in certain households. It might be keeping the good friendship with everyone and maintaining the strong connections with your family. It might seem trivial for anyone. But without it, life would have been a mess. This is a major success in itself.

The examples are endless. In sports being a regular trainer. With friends being the supportive or the fun or the backbone. For children being their one true adult friend. It might seem trivial. But this is the true success being able to maintain the strings of your daily routines working with love and devotion.

This is how you succeed. This is the true achievements of life. Seeking those little achievements daily is definitely the key.

About Loss.. A Grieving Thought

Loss is that painful feeling that you have no longer a chance to talk to or see your beloved ones. Loss comes with many forms. The loss of a love. The loss of a relationship. The loss of a beloved job or a valuable asset. Loss forms also in health and habits. But above all comes the most painful losses with death.

Death parts people and takes away the chance to build new memories together. The person who passed away might continue to live inside us. But it turns from the present tense to the past tense. It becomes a voice in our minds.. a feeling in our hearts.. it becomes a dream or a flashback. But the real agony comes from the fact that no matter what you do, you won’t be able to live again any of those small moments.

Those endless little details being lost.. is the most painful thing about death. It is the absence of that flawless good morning.. the calming voice you used to call everyday is constantly missing… the disappear of that caring open channel you used to have..

Loss leaves us behind grieving badly. Grief beyond words can express. A level of grief where life is no longer the same.

How come that the places our beloved ones used to exist in are now that empty. Empty bed. Empty room. Empty hall. Silence prevails to a level which kills me. That chat which will no longer continue. Our talk which will never witness your reply again.

That kind of loss.. grief and pain. It is beyond what my heart can handle. It is indeed painful. The voices in my mind.. your voices.. your words are echoing nonstop leaving traces of endless vain.. pain.. eating everything and leaving lots of hurting. Loss is making me speechless. I try to silence the pain by keeping company. But every night on my bed. I sneak in the darkness and cry my soul out. It is hard to believe you are not here anymore. I hoped we had still few decades together. But I was wrong. The shock.. the fear.. the hurting.. no words will ever describe how we all feel.. your loss.. is one of the hardest losses..

Until we meet again…

A Grieving Letter

Dear Mother-in-law,

You passed away yesterday. I am still absorbing it. I cannot even start describing the pain and grief of the loss of those who knew you for years. You are one of the beautiful souls inside out.

From day one that you heard about me, you have opened your arms and heart for me. You were welcoming me in ways I did not imagine possible. You took us between your arms, me and my child. You embraced us and you made me feel home like I never felt before. I have always loved those long chats between us, either gossiping about your son, or telling random stories of daily life. You removed the barrier in your special way, and you always had a beautiful story to tell.

I remember the first time I met you, you hugged me, and said how happy you are to finally meet me. You had always your special way, which made it easy for anyone to get attached to you.

Living here, 3000+ kms away, made it hard to spend proper regular weekends with you. I always felt the urge, the wish, the need to spend more time with you. I wished to properly see every detail of your life. We spent a beautiful summer holiday together, and it never felt too much. Everything was so smooth, and so natural. But those were only two weeks. Then, we had again our endless chats. In most of our talks, you had your way to ask about all details. You cared from your heart for our lives. You kept all the bonds despite the distance.

Then came the wedding, and its preparations. You were over the moon. We shared details and preparations. You had always been there with sweet care. Whenever I needed some opinion about a detail, you were happily there.

Then, came the COVID, with all its lock downs around the world. We could not see you again until last December. It was a beautiful catch-up. We met almost every day of my short vacation there. It never felt too much. I was always happy to stay there with you. You showed me the pictures of your childhood. You told me many stories which were all so nice and so light. You had your special way… You were really special.

You introduced me properly for the family, and my child had the chance to meet and bond with every single person in your family. Real bonds were built. No grudges, no behind-the-back talks, no weird situations were ever there. Pure “I feel myself home” feeling prevailed the whole period. I was honored to get closer to you, and to spend proper quality time in person in that period. Then, we had to go back here, and again the distant talks.

Then, came the new wave, and another lock down followed the first one. It was very hard to go anywhere, but we had high hopes to meet again in Easter holidays. It was all unclear, but we hoped to be able to spend some time again by then.

You got sick, and unexpectedly it all developed so quickly. We could video chat in the beginning, but then it all deteriorated so quickly. In less than 10 days, you were already in the hospital, and later in the ICU. The days of the ICU were heavy, we were not able to talk to you, or see you. It was your prison in that place, and it was our prison being distant from you. Until that day came, and silence prevailed along with pain.

You passed away leaving a huge gap, and big loss for our families. You were the main bond between all families, and you maintained all connections between all of us. You cared for every single detail, and every little story. You were so pure from inside. You shared positive energy and love with anyone you spoke to. You were an easy-going person, who made the life of anyone around easy. I am writing in the hope of trying to feel better. Despite my limited time with you, I really loved you from my heart. I cannot even start to relate to the pain those who shared a lifetime with you..

Until we meet again..

اللهمّ اغفر لها و ارحمها و اعف عنها و اكرمها منزلها، لا إله إلا أنت يا حنان يا منان يا بديع السموات و الأرض تغمدها برحمتك يا أرحم الراحمين

اللهمّ اجزها عن الإحسان إحساناً، وعن الإساءة عفواً وغفراناً. اللهمّ إن كانت محسنة فزد من حسناتها، وإن كان مسيئة فتجاوز عن سيّئاتها. اللهمّ أدخلها الجنّة من غير مناقشة حساب، ولا سابقة عذاب. اللهمّ آنسها في وحدتها، وفي وحشتها، وفي غربتها

اللهمّ أنزلها منزلاً مباركاً، وأنت خير المنزلين. اللهمّ أنزلها منازل الصدّيقين، والشّهداء، والصّالحين، وحسُن أولئك رفيقاً. اللهمّ اجعل قبرها روضةً من رياض الجنّة، ولا تجعله حفرةً من حفر النّار. اللهمّ افسح لها في قبرها مدّ البصر، وافرش قبرها من فراش الجنّة

اللهم أغفر لها وأرحمها وأعف عنها وأكرم نزلها ووسع مدخلها وغسلها بالماء والثلج والبرد ونقها من الخطايا كما ينقى الثوب الأبيض من الدنس، وارحمنا إذا صرنا إلى ما صارت إليه وجازها بالحسنات إحسانا وبالسيئات عفوا وغفرانا وأفتح أبواب السماء لروحها برحمتك يا أرحم الراحمين.

اللهم ارحمها فوق الارض وتحت الارض ويوم العرض عليك. اللهم قها عذابك يوم تبعث عبادك.
اللهم انقلها من ضيق اللحود ومن مراتع الدود الى جناتك جنات الخلود لا اله إلا أنت يا حنان يا منان يا بديع السماوات والارض تغمدها برحمتك يا ارحم الراحمين.

اللهم يمّن كتابها ويسّر حسابها ، وثقّل بالحسنات ميزانها، وثبّت على الصراط أقدامها وأسكنها في أعلى الجنات، في جوار نبيّك ومصطفاك صلى الله عليه وسلم .

اللهم احشرها مع المتقين إلى الرحمن وفدا، وفي زمرة المؤمنين ومع الصديقين والشهداء.
اللـهـم إنها فى ذمتك وحبل جوارك فقها فتنة القبر وعذاب النار، وانت أهل الوفاء والحق فاغفر لها وارحمها انك انت الغفور الرحيم.
وصل اللهم علي سيدنا محمد وعلى آله وصحبه وسلم

ما أهلك سوء الظن

ما أهلك سوء الظن.. لا ادري من أين أبدأ الكتابة.. لكن مرت شهور وأعوام كثيرة ولازال الألم مستمر.. فأكثر ما يؤذيني هو سوء الظن.. سواد القلب.. لا أعلم لم.. لكنه داءٌ شديد الأذى لكل من حوله..

لا استطيع أن اتعامل مع من يسيء ظنه بكل من حوله.. فيحيل كل جمال لمكر.. ويرى كل مبتسم منافق.. يتربص لكل مخطئ.. ويكيد كل  يعيش كارهاً للناس ويؤمن أنهم يستحقون كل شر.. فيقضي حياته متربص لكل من حوله.. و يمكث متمنياً لهم السوء دوماً.. ومع كل سوء ظن يأتي العند.. فلا يصدق أن اخرون يعيشون في سلام.. وينكر أن احدهم يتمنى خيراً لغيره.. 

فكم من مسيء ظن قد هلك.. وأهلك معه كل من تعامل معه.. قد يمر الموقف ويبقى الأثر.. لماذا كل هذا السواد.. لا أعلم.. أسأل الله الهداية.. وأن يحمينا من كل سوء ظن ومن كل مسيء ظن.. 

My Friend.. Grow Up!

Life is full of challenges on its own, it is never wise to add more burdens on top. That friend who feels jealous of something I have, even though she is aware of the endless weights I still carry. That assumption that I don’t call daily, then I have no more interest. That strange passive aggressiveness coming out of the blues. Needless to mention, the constant “ignoring” and avoidance when I am no longer needed. It gives a lot of mixed up feelings. I feel that urge to shout out loud “Grow UP”. Life is really filled up with a lot of burdens already which would be quite unfair to add more hardships on top. It would be nicer and easier to just be there for your friends and wish them the happiness that they deserve. Why don’t we just clear out our hearts and minds and enjoy being there for each other?!

A Distorted Channel

One loses his respect, and dignity once he/she starts to disrespect others. It is very easy to gain respect of the one in front of you. But once it is lost, it is lost! No matter what is done, it will always be torn apart, and broken down. It is close to impossible to build back that broken mutual respect. It would need years of constant effort to try to bring back what was damaged. But in most cases, it never works out.

Unfortunately, it is quite easy to disrespect others and be mean to them. Sometimes out of anger, or frustration, we say things which we never meant. We hurt others without realizing it. But once it is done, it is done! There is nothing in the world which would fix that fracture. Sometimes a strong apology would do the job to get back the normality in the relationship. But the memory of the crack will always stay.

There was this person who I knew for years, until he belittled me in a public place. He did that without realizing how big the damage would be. He did that, without realizing the effect of his words on the fragile relation we already had. Meanwhile, the effect was tremendous.

The remains were only ashes of a distorted communication pattern.. That would never be fixed again.

Tunisian Couscous – كسكس تونسي

Tunisian couscous … كسكس تونسي
١ كوسة
١ قرع
٢ بطاطس متقشرة
٢ جزر
لحم مقطع قطع كبيرة
٢ كوب كسكس
٢ كوب ماء مغلي
ثوم
بصل
ملح، فلفل، كمون، كسبرة
٣ ملاعق صوص طماطم

الطريقة:

  • نسوي اللحمة مع البهارات والثوم والبصل مع كمية مياة صغيرة
  • بعد ما تستوي، نقطع الخضار قطع كبيرة، ونحطهم مع اللحمة، والصلصة، اول ما يغلوا نطفي..
  • تحضير الكسكس..
  • تغلي كوباتين مياة
  • نخلط الكسكس مع ملعقة ملح و٣ ملاعق زيت علي جنب(في طبق او علبة)
  • اول ما تغلي المياة، حطي الكسكس المخلوط في الحلة ونقفل عليها فوراً.. لمدة ٥ دقايق هتكون استوت من البخار..
  • نطلع الكسكس من الحلة بالشوكة (مش معلقة علشان ما يعجنش)

بجد كانت حلوة جدا وشوفوا صور علي النت شكلها ايه وخفيفة جدا جدا جدا..

Das Mädchen!

6080434837455bd337b236b81eb16e23--red-photography-red-scarvesHinter der alten Mauer stand ein hübsches vierzehnjähriges Mädchen. Sehr großen blauen Augen glänzten auf ein ängstliches Gesicht. Sie verstekte mit vollem Angst hinter einen schwachen Baum. Zwar es war unbedingt kalt und nass, weil es den ganzen Nacht stark regnete. Unglaublich war sie voll verhungert, vermuttlich seit Tagen aß die nur Nüsse, die auf ihre Hand gefallten. Die Augen hatten ganz viele Geschichten erzählt, aber dennoch glücklich. Dadurch konnte man ganz eindeutlich Hoffnungstrahlen sehen, die den Welt bunter färbte. Wie kann so ein Mädchen mein Leben ändern? Sie hatte eine starke positive Auswirkung über mich. Ich finde sie so lieb, so hübsch, und so unfassbar. Wie kann es sein? Es wundert mich immer…

Why Do People Abandon Religion?

1483494409People perceive incidents differently. Some perceive the rain as a bless for Earth, others perceive it as a doom. Same goes for religion. Along our limited lives, we meet some people who decided to abandon religion, after being so strictly attached to it. It is not related to a certain religion, but it is a generic trend in humanity…

Human natural instinct pushes us to run away of whatever hurts us. With some people, certain incidents happen during their lives that cause tremendous pain, agony, grief and sadness. In some cases, this feeling turns into severe trauma, where our natural instinct pushes us out of that muddy feeling. It rescues us, by pushing us to abandon every single potential source of pain. In various cases, religion is the one of the first abandoned things. The reason goes back to the misinterpretation of religion. We misunderstand what religions oblige us to do, and how to do it. In our recent years, religions focus on the rituals rather than focusing on the spiritual philosophy behind.

Indeed, it is an intuitive first escape for such huge remorse sometimes. But in most cases, when the tough phases are over, and more quiet days start to come, things change. We realize that the abandon was an escape. It was fear of facing reality. It was weakness of seeing the right scale of things. This is a human’s first response to tremendous unbearable pain –> Escape.

In fact, in many cases, people return back to religion. Thus, this becomes the most powerful spiritual re-connection. You realize what is true, what is not. You figure out the abstract equation of life, and realize that from God, to God and through God everything works. It does not cause you pain for no reason. But on the other hand, it guides you on the hard times, as well as on the good times to reach inner peace.

Yes, people sometimes abandon their beliefs seeking relief. But after a while, they realize that relief lies within the abandoned beliefs. They find their path again to whatever was lost.

ربوهم على الحب

child-hugging-motherربوهم على الحب مش الخوف. علموهم إن الدراسة مش مرعبة بالعكس، دى مكان جميل نتعلم فيه ونقابل ناس وصحاب جداد. عودوهم إن الصلاه مش علشان خايفين من العذاب، بالعكس! احنا بنصلي عشان بنحب ربنا. ربوهم إن البنات مش شهوة ولا كائنات هتدخلهم النار! بالعكس!! البنات بنحبهم ومن كتر حبنا ليهم بنخاف عليهم ونعاملهم بحب وحنان. فهموهم إن جيراننا وقرايبنا مش أعدائنا بالعكس، دول سند لينا وهدية من ربنا يكونوا موجودين فى حياتنا. للأسف احنا بنربي جواهم الخوف أكتر ما بنربي الحب. بيكبروا خايفين يحبوا أو يظهر أي حب لأي مخلوق. بنربيهم على المشاعر السلبية قبل أي مشاعر إيجابية.

The Power of Words

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We say words, making promises, but once they are broken, trust is gone.

In some situations in life, someone we trust, gives us a promise. He gives us his word. You trust the person so much that it is almost impossible to believe that he will not stick to what he promised. Then, boom! It is all vain. All promises are broken, so does the trust.

With the huge crack in trust, everything else goes away. It turns all previous memories to ashes. It questions their genuine intentions. It gives no choice but to cancel their existence from your life.

In our culture, people are used to give void promises: “I will do this for you”, “I will call you tomorrow”, “I can never let you down”, “I will pay on time”, “I will never turn my back”….etc. It is a long endless list of void promises. They give us lots of hope, and they are sometimes even a backbone for our life. But when you figure out this is all void, the reality breaks out.

Watch out what you promise. Your words define who you are. If you cannot protect them, you would definitely lose more than what you can afford. One day, your words would stand against you, and wipe out everything you have ever built!

 

It’s OK to be Sad

9cbf2cb22842755532dfa9cd37a18bffSadness… It is just sad. Saying that word brings out a deep heavy sigh. Sadness is one of the strongest emotions which make our whole body stop. Our mind gets paralyzed by the overwhelming negative feelings invading our brains. Our heart aches because of that those sad emotions flooding within our chests. Our whole body stops functioning normally. Even the definition of normal fades away depending on the level of sadness we might experience.

Sadness might be because of a loss of a relationship, or a grief after the death of someone close, or regret for some action or decision made. Sadness does not come with a pamphlet why it should happen. But definitely, the sad moments come as part of the package for being on this planet.

Some people are naturally sad because of the incidents they had to go through along their lives; mostly it affects their emotional state. The recurrence of such sad incidents in people’s lives makes them alters their normal state. This is when the normal default state shifts one by one from being happy to having sadness as part of who we are.

Some others become sad because of some physical reasons, such as hormonal disturbances and disorders. It is known for psychiatrists and psychologists that they usually ask their “sad” patients to have their hormones checked. Some hormonal disturbances leave the patient fatigue and sleepy most of the time. Moreover, it induces these depressed and sad feelings strongly within the patient.

Sadness is part of our emotional feelings. It will come, and it will keep coming. Nevertheless, we should not leave it sneak to our daily routine until it becomes our normal default state. One healthy way to get over sadness is to allow this feeling to happen; i.e. never suppress sadness. Suppressing this strong emotion will only make it grow harder and uglier. Talk about it, write about it, work hard, or do some sports to safely ditch this sadness away.

Sadness is healthy and important for us to mature emotionally, but we should not surrender to grief and make it a life style! As much as sadness is hard, as much as we should work on it before it turns to depression. Because only then, every unresolved sad feeling will find its way to slowly take our lives away.

It is always okay to be sad, but please do not let it last for so long.

Music to My Ears

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You were more than a friend… Always
You cheered me up, in all ways
In the darkest moments, you were the light
Because of you, my days were bright
You were the guidance for my soul
You were my priority above all
Beauty to my eyes, music to my ears
Most beautiful voice, that one hears
I am blessed to have you in my life
Your eternal love, is what I strive

Lost Interest in Humans

show-194177Humans.. What a word! It used to mean a lot, but now it doesn’t anymore.

I have been so quiet recently, because I lost interest in humans and lost faith in humanity. There were years when I believed in the goodness of human kind. Until many incidents happened, one after the other, which hit in every base I had. Ending up with ashes of those beliefs. There are still some good kind people who still share with us this world, but they are too few and with negligible influence. There are other days where evilness prevails, and it strikes every chance to fix the world, leaving behind ages of work to bring life back to what was destroyed.

Sadly, those incidents hit so hard, that it is no longer interesting to get to know people that close. It is scary to get too close. It is tough to get beaten again from unexpected persons. It wasn’t supposed to be that hard, but unfortunately it is.

Some marks will always stay. They don’t hurt that much anymore, but the scars are quite deep and clear to remind everyone of what already happened. Some scars are meant to stay, to keep the memory of pain, and to ensure that the lesson is learned, and it does not need to be re-learned again.

The Bridge..

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I stood in front of you that day. My heart was aching and tears were on the edge of flowing. I wished to hide between your arms. This would have been the safest place on earth for me that particular moment. You were so close. You sat down on the bridge while I stood up so that you look to me from a lower place. I was so close that I felt your soul is fully inside me. Your eyes, face, hands and body… all so close.. at my chest level. You leaned down a bit looking for those tears. You saw me holding them. Then you straightened your arms, offering a hug. I stood there, wishing to! But I couldn’t. Then you stood up. Me facing you, with our height difference it felt perfect. I wanted nothing more than this hug. I wanted to place my arms around your neck and hide my face on your left shoulder. I wished that you open your arms for me to go inside. But you didn’t. I looked to the ground out of shyness, sadness and held tears. It has been a lot. I wished to hide between your arms and cry.. just cry my soul out. I felt pushed to just throw my full body into you. You standing there. Ready for me. Me wishing for you.. nothing stopped me except my fear of losing you. I wished to, needed to, and hoped to hide in you. But I just couldn’t!

I always wonder how do you make me feel that safe always the whole time? Why do I run to you in every situation? Why are you my safe resort? Many questions but one answer.. the love and intimacy I have for you is something beyond explanation. Part of your soul grew inside of me . And it will always be like that.

Without you, I would have definitely never existed.

I vs You

Some of us use “I” in conversations more than “You”. They are very self centred and self focused. No matter how hard you try to be there for them, that they would be able to see you or add you to their equation. This becomes painful along time. Since you invest a lot trying to be “something” for them. But eventually, you end up “nothing”.

Chaoes

yIIWkpQkChaoes is what goes on my mind. Nothing sorts it out or calms it down. The loud screaming voices aren’t giving me a chance to sleep or think. The painful pleading heart isn’t giving my mind a chance to be logical. Emotionally drained, scared, sad and exhausted.. unable to communicate to anyone anymore because my comfort backbone decided to leave. I feel suddenly dropped in an angry ocean, with some basic knowledge how to face the roaring waves. But I have never tried before to be on my own that way. It is a tough storm going through my soul, heart and thoughts. A very far logical intuition says it is the right thing… at least for now. But in my heart deep down, I wish that once and for all… I have the chance to be with you.. the only person I devoted my life to. Perhaps, this isn’t love. It is the harmony, the safety, the care, the intimacy that is lost. I am not sure if it feels safe again with you. Being my backbone, and then disappearing .. Your decision is very very very painful. What will happen, we will not be the same again. Just friends? I hope. But now of course this is not doable. This is painful more than what I can explain.

People Change.. to Assholes

People change along years. We all do. They either become -perhaps- a better versions of themselves, or -definitely- become assholes. No one remains the same. We build experiences and memories along days. We meet different people, but the most common pattern is that people turn to assholes, while in some rare cases, people become humans!

a22d4c7e2b2fa07c985149b5b77ab856Being an asshole became a pattern, a characteristic and an advantage. Assholes take people for granted. They misuse their power, and abuse everyone lying in their circle of relationships. They become the threat, where everyone else becomes a victim.

Assholes circle is growing massively fast, that it leaves no chance for “Humans” to stay. Humans leave this life early enough not to be harmed, but some fail to escape on the right time. Some are still captured, harmed, tortured and abused. Usually after such asshole’s actions, those humans are left behind as wreckage, remains of humans.

Damage is beyond explanation.. Pain is more than what words can explain.. Once upon a time.. I used to be a human.. Now, I am only remains of a human..

Choices

belief-choices-courage-life-Favim.com-3547194-300x300People make choices.. lots of them. They know facts, or guess things, and eventually they still choose to make their own choices. They choose to stay with a cheater, or decide to end a fraud. They choose to break their child’s soul, or live up and stand up for them. They choose to believe a stranger telling a strange truth, or trust a brother who is full of lies.

Choices are made, consciously and unconsciously. But they change our lives forever. They change the lives of those surrounding us forever. Our choices do not only affect us, but they affect everyone else around.

It is all about choices..

Auf der Suche

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Wenn ich kein Wörter mehr finde.. Wenn ich kein Lösung mehr habe.. Wenn ich ganz depremiert bin.. Wenn ich mit niemand sprechen kann.. oder darf.. Wenn die ganze Welt sehr schwarz ist.. Wenn Angst mein Hauptgefühl ist.. Wenn Hass mich ausfüllt.. Wenn ich mich töten will.. Wenn Tod zu werden eine Wünsch ist… Wenn keiner mich versteht… oder mit mir bleiben will… Wenn ich stark abgelent bin..

Dann bin ich auf der Suche auf Hilfe.. Irgendwelche Hilfe, die vielleicht mir auf Dreck rausziehen kann.. Vielleicht es ist kein Dreck, vielleicht es ist einfach mein Leben.

Auf der Suche.. bin ich immer noch.

Duaa

اللهم إليك أشكو ضعف قوتي وقلة حيلتي وهواني على الناس يا أرحم الراحمين أنت ربُّ المستضعفين وانت ربّي إلى من تكلني، إلى بعيد يتجهَّمني أم إلى عدو ملكته أمري إن لم يكن بك علىِّ غضبُُ فلا أبالي، ولكنَّ عافَيَتَك أوسعُ لي أعوذ بنور وجهك الذي أشرقت له الظلمات، وصلح عليه أمر الدنيا والآخره من أن تُنزل بي غضبك أو يَحِلَّ علىَّ سخطُك لك العتبى حتى ترضى ولا حول ولا قوة إلا بك

إلهي كيف أدعوك وأنا أنا، وكيف أقطع رجائي منك وأنت أنت؟، إلهي إن لم أدعوك تستيجب لي فمن ذا الذي أدعوه فيستجيب؟ وإن لم أسألك تعطيني فمن ذا الذي أسأله فيعطيني؟ وإن لم أتضرع إليك تنجيني فمن ذا الذي أتضرع إليه فينجيني؟ إاللهم وكما فلقت البحر لموسى ونجيته من الغرق فصلّ ياربي على محمد وعلى آل محمد ونجني مما أنا فيه من كرب بفرج منك عاجل غير آجل وبرحمتك يا أرحم الراحمين.