I Cherish You

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We have met by chance that one night under the rain. It was a light rainy night with a refreshing breeze that went through my hair freeing it from its locked curls. It was a night that I would never forget.

The rain started lightly where I had no shelter to cover. But I was drowning in my own thoughts. I haven’t noticed the rain nor the darkness prevailing around. I was wondering aimlessly and living in my own bubble in a world which existed only in my daydreams. I was seeing a lot of sunshine, endless flowery trees, and colorful butterflies kissing the flowers petals with their fragile wings. But in my dream, everything was so still and so quiet. I was enjoying the illusion my mind was creating, but I was aware that it was unreal. It was a beautiful image that lived in my mind, which I brought out every now and then, but I never had the chance to live it in real life. Until that night came when I met you…

In the middle of that rain, you showed up. You stood in front of me where our eyes locked. You whispered few words about my wet hair and the cool breeze. You starred to my soul through my eyes like no one has ever looked to me. Your eyes came to my world to brighten it. Your words resonated in my ears endlessly. I no longer remember your words, but I remember your desire to care for me. Your voice calmed my dreamy soul, and brought life to my long-forgotten heart.  Your masculine voice was so seducing and so sensual. You opened my eyes to the real world and made me see its real beauty. You made me eager to live in reality and encouraged me to let go of my fake daydreams. You allowed me to feel your arms invading my recurrent still daydreams pulling me out to the beautiful warm reality. Your existence created much more beautiful memories and made me feel with all of my senses. It was my first time to feel that connection between my heart, my soul and my mind. You came and brought new meanings and definitions for my life.

I was used to daydream to escape the cruel reality. But now, with you and because of you, I diminished my unreal dreams to stay with you with my mind, heart, soul, and full senses. I cherish you for how you brightened my life. I worship you, for who you made me be…

Your Flaws Are My Blesses

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I have revealed my whole me to you, my inside and outside.

It is always very hard to open up to anyone that much. It is quite a huge effort for many of us to allow anyone that deep inside, letting them see our whole image that way, our thoughts, emotions, ideas, and feelings. It is not just a huge effort; it might even be an impossible to reach state, or a nagging nightmare. We fear the judgment of others, and above all, we fear being ditched away.

I bet there have been endless moments, where you favored silence to telling your abstract opinion in a certain situation. Do you remember that day when you found that friend of yours crying. You wished to hold him/her tight. You wished so hard  to calm him/her down, to ensure that we are all alike. But you were afraid to show him/her your real you. Your abstract you with its beauty and darkness. You were keen to help, but without showing anything about your real you. It is mostly because your fear…

None of us is perfect. None of us is complete. Each one of us has his flaws and blessings. Some of us live with destructive flaws for themselves and for those around. Others have blessings that are for everyone available. Some relationships work with both flaws and blessings together. Those are relationships where flaws are accepted and blessings are maintained. This is where people work on finding a common ground together, to build a life.

In some other relationships, it is even more beautiful. These are relationships where flaws of one are blessings for the other. If someone sees the flaws of the other as blesses, this is the most beautiful optimum relationship ever. They complete each other, literally. When they find their way together to accept each other as they are, and enjoy the way they are as a whole. Let it be partnership, friendship or even at work. Such completeness is a good fertile ground to build a healthy relation, a wonderful relation, and a successful life.

Mean Life

There were days when I gave you the best of me, and you ruined them by giving me the worst of you. I built for you the sweetest memories of your life, while you trapped me in endless nightmares. I always exerted all the efforts happily, while you severely blamed me for every unintended flaw. I was always accused of unreal wrong intentions. All my intuitive ideas were questioned, and eventually rejected. Every single action was pinpointed, and considered as a good soil for sarcasm. I gave you everything, until one day I woke up so drained that I had to give up. I got weakened by your torturing indifference. I lost my firing passion by your consistant anger. I had no other choice to survive, except to runaway.

So I escaped you, suffered my loss of identity, and gave up all my dreams. I made many wrong choices afterwards, because I lost sense of orientation. I had to go through years of pain on my own, until pain became my life style. I have lost my internal passion in life because of you, and no matter how hard I try to get it back, it never lasts. Among all that I lost, I have lost my faith. The faith in myself, people, life, and even God. HE might have protected me of you at that time. But now, after we both changed, why is everything perfect for you and why am I still lost that way. I think I will never know. At least not in this life!

Somehow after all that time, I fail to let go, I fail to forgive myself for running away, I fail to forgive your friends for not talking to you to get us back together, and I fail to not hate life for being that mean.

Keys of My Heart

I know it is happening again. That urging need for a listening heart is knocking on my doors one more time. It is stronger than before, more powerful, and more consistent. Apparently, the defensive barriers that were there before did not survive the first impact. They were severely damaged, with no repairs done.

  I feel it with every stare from you. It pierces directly into my soul without any filters. It reaches my inner soul without any barriers. It explores my feelings, thoughts and emotions. It hits my weakest spots, giving me no option except collapsing hardly in front of that stare.

I feel it with every question. The words are very traditional. However, the meanings behind are beyond what my strength can handle. The very traditional words reveal the tremendous care you give me. They weaken me more and more, giving me no option but to fall for you.

I am fully aware that it is happening again, more beautifully, more strongly, and more baldly. Nevertheless, I am totally clueless what to do to build again that defensive door for my soul. I became so vulnerable in a way which will collapse my pillars… Again.

This time it is for you, and I can’t wait until I fully give you the keys of my heart. I know it is happening, and I can’t wait until we are all way through!

The Key to Long-lasting Relationships

Long lasting relationships is some hard-to-achieve dream. In some cultures, it is the impossible-to-achieve goal. In some other places, it is not even applicable to be set as a dream! This is definitely pathetic. All these marriages taking place, while as much as equal divorces and separations are happening. Needless to mention the countless betrayals occurring. All of these pushed me to wonder how the old generations managed to have a long-lasting relationship.

Is it only the claimed evolution which makes us tend more to seek separations rather than exerting the effort to solve?! I doubt it. Our grandparents and grand grand parents had other problems. They could have also picked that solution to escape the problem, however they did not. I kept digging, searching and asking around old people how they did it along the years.

Most of the time, the answers were too vague, too clumsy, or too naïve. It made me even question if these people really know what made them stay together or not. For example, how would a well served lunch persuade people to stay in a relationship! Some replies were even more vulgar, like the man believes his wife is too sexy to leave her behind or the man earns good money to make her enjoy shopping could never be a valid reason to stay in a relationship for decades. There were some other pathetic replies; like I am with her because she raises the kids, or he is the money provider. This implies they chose to be together without any kind of a real connection.

Until one day, I received an interesting answer. It was the celebration of their 50’s anniversary, when I asked her: “HOW!”. That was when she told me: “I hear what he says with my right ear, and let it all go out with my left ear”. In the beginning, I could not understand, how anyone would build a life that way. Until I realized what she meant.

She created a filter in her mind, she threw away whatever created conflict and she kept all what strengthened the bond. She probably did not live days where she received love letters or flowers the whole day. But definitely, her tactic made her reduce the chances of widening the gap. Instead, she closed it and she worked on adjusting her character not to get angry of him.

Ironically, when I asked the man the same question with the same excitement: “HOWWWW!”. His reply did not make much of a difference from hers. These people made me wonder if this tactic would really work out. This on-going filter is a sort of a running forgiveness program in the background! It made me think how hard the job is to filter the conflicts without totally losing communication. In fact, if they celebrate their anniversary after all these years, it must mean something. It shows that her advice is true and valid.

The key for a long lasting relationship is not in flowers and letters. It is all about NOT listening!!

Nothing Replaces You

I tend to articulate my appreciation and gratitude verbally. That’s why I write, and I will definitely keep writing (indefinitely). I will use my words to declare how I feel. The bare truth is that I still lose a heart beat every single time I remember you. Trust me, it does happen a lot, extremely a lot. The agonizing pain that you are no longer here is one major reason why the love is still alive. I mastered the art of cunning. I managed to nourish your love on my pain. I ended up living with a heart full of love but without you being actually here. It gave me beautiful love, stronger connection and more emotional belief. You have always been there in my heart. No matter how long we do not talk, you have always been everywhere around me. I see your soul guiding me through my daily life. I feel your warm breath taking me to my safe limits. I hear your words over and over again motivating me to be who I definitely wish to be. For sure, there is nothing or no one that will be able to replace you in my heart.

I wish to be with The Man

I wish to be with the man who can read me from my eyes, who can understand my words without speaking, and who knows my moods and knows how to handle them.

I wish to be with a man who loves me for who I am instead of teaching me how he wants me to be. I wish to be with a man who works on understanding my needs rather than teaching me what my needs should be, who completes me, and who is my own mirror, to whom I look to, talk to and think with to understand myself better.

I wish to be with a man who speaks my love language, who appreciates my priorities and understands my capabilities, and who respects my boundaries and respects my values.

I wish to be with a man who is a one true man, who does not show off, and who ignites my senses. I wish to be with a man who is really there; body and soul. I wish to be with a man who can read my signals over telepathy.

I wish to be with a man who respects my friends, and family, who is proud to be with me, who reads what I write, loves my hobbies, and supports me to practice them, and who values how I look like. I wish to be with a man who helps me look more beautiful from inside and reflect that to the outside.

I wish to be with a man who is capable to stand for his own life, and who is able to trust my freedom, who is responsible for his own life during the day, and able to grasp my fears during the night. All what I ask for is a man, is that hard to get?

Lessons About Love

I found this today over the internet. It is one of the most valuable lessons about love…

Fall in love with your best friend. Someone you can talk to about anything and know they’ll hold no judgement. Someone who knows the darkest parts of you and loves you anyway, that knows all your flaws and loves you not in spite of them but because of them. Not someone that you can’t live without, but someone that you don’t want to live without. Someone that you want to experience all of life’s ups and downs with. Someone who will hold your hand through the worst times of your life. When they see you at your worst, when you’re broken, and they don’t run away but help you put the pieces back together, that’s real love.

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Because of Love

Only those who understands you, are the ones who love you.

Sometimes we come up with ideas that no one would usually understand. Only the ones who really love us, would support us to the maximum until we have these ideas done for real. The ones who love us, know how to make us happy. They know how to push us that extra mile. They do not only know, but they also understand why this idea is important for us. They do not judge us, but they would rather see things from our perspective. They might even try doing that idea with us, even if they had no interest in it. This is all can be done, only “Because of Love”.

We need more love in our lives, that true love, which makes everything insane possible. Everything can be done because of love.